Welcome to my inner thoughts.

Hi all!

I decided to take a break from the normal course of bitching and moaning I usually do to reintroduce this blog.

While today I did get two people ask for the "red book" we sell in our store, (Seriously. That's what they asked for.) and the two rude women who were fucked up enough to take Christmas cards of a cart I was pushing during the cards relocation and placed them on a shelf they passed in bargain. I mean really. That wasn't were they got the fucking cards from in the first place. Oh, and then they had the nerve to bitch because even though the cards are 75% off list price, they felt they were paying way too much for "after Christmas scraps." WTF!!!!!! I am going to give the nitty gritty, down and dirty explanation for why I decided to start this blog.

First of all, I guess this really isn't the typical blog. I guess it's more of an online journal for me. I don't show a lot of links or ironic pics that I found from hours of Internet surfing. This is my therapy. I think I've said that a bunch, but for everyone that's missed it, think of this blog as my mute shrink. It is also my closest friend at the time. I share secrets, and it doesn't blab. We have a great relationship. So, online journal, got it?

I come here so I can vent through my alter ego, Yokai. The name is Japanese for demon, apparition, spirit, pissed of mythical creature, and so on. My full name is Yokai Kifujin, which you'll see me sign with at the end from time to time. Rough translation: Lady Evil Spirit ( evil is kinda implied with demons) or even rougher: Demon Lady. A perfect name for a person that chokes back on all the bad, horrible, disgusting, frustrating, and saddening things she encounters. Of course, with pain there has to be a bit of pleasure, so there are good thing spoken of here. It can't always rain.

Yokai Kifujin or Demon Lady as an appropriate name. Call me Yokai. No need for formalities here. So I scream, swear, and cry here. On occasions, I smile. There is no taboo topics here. Once you enter this site, kiss, prudence bye-bye. But there is anonymity. It's just not cool to blast someone out like that. Now, if you can decipher and pick yourself out, the guilt or pleasure has gotten to ya. Or, it's a subject worth you remembering; good or bad. Anyway that's on you to determine.

If you don't like what I'm saying, you don't have to come back. You can even post your feelings. Free country for now. I will probably send you a response. It's nothing personal. I respect all my readers.

So welcome to the dank and dark, gloom and doom, with a slight forecast of giggles, and hell yeahs. Wait, if you don't like or can stomach Lord Sesshomaru, the hottest and most awesome animae/manga character ever, well you need to leave and never come back to this blog again.

My indulgence fore the day, Dove milk chocolate bars and toasted honey cereal!!!!! Oh, I had to hot cherry pies from McDonald's. So I worked out for an hour to make up for it. Also, an indulgence. Now I'm off to eat more cereal and start the movie, Road to Guantanamo Bay. I just finished House of Flying Daggers, it was awesome. It was much better than Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon.

I got a big send off tonight. Enjoy:

Nature us forever giving us chance after chance
at what we call rebirth and death, and we, in
our folly, in our fear of death, fail to understand
that which represents a new journey,
a new pate on which to write, and thus to
believe in a new beginning for ourselves

--Shri Parthasarathi Rajagopalachari

Demon Lady