Blogatus

Long time no type/read!!!!

I wish you good tidings my fellow blogytes. I took I guess a bit of a hiatus from the blog. I didn't mean to, but it just happened. My alter ego is feeling mental bruised and battered, and just could not wrap my head around things. So for the last week and a half, I battled restlessness, but extreme exhaustion, a loss of focus/concentration, and a general lack of wanting to exist.

I feel a bit better. I'm also trying to get back into the my habits: reading, studying Wicca, exercising, eating reasonable portions and no fast food. It is a very slow process trying to get back to where you were before depression hits. It seemed as though all the energy was sucked outta me.

So far I think the thing that started this decent was the ever changing schedule for the refi of our house. It went from being a week long simple hassle to being a 3 week sporadic and crushing event. The closer we got to closing the more things the mortgage company or the under writer decided they would need. So other than telling this to us upfront, they waited until it was a "overnight me" issue. We finally got a clear to close yesterday at 10 am. The big thing that made me mad was the lawyer kept setting times that I was either at work or at an appointment, because my life needs to stop for everyone else's convenience Friday I got so pissed off, I yelled at Hubby and told him I would sign a power of attorney for him to sign all the paperwork for me. Nope. The mortgage company wouldn't go for that. Hence back to the under writer to put that in the final paperwork. So we were pushed back til Monday for that little blurb to go in the contract. Fuckers.

As I said, we got a clear to close by 10am. Paperwork was ready for our signatures. It just needed to be overnighted to our lawyer. At 10:30am, a rep for refi's at the mortgage company contact the loan guy. Due to the amount bankruptcies of home mortgage companies and banks that deal with home loans and the drop in the stock market last week, the US government has okayed all home loans (to include equity ones) deemed high risk (any of 7.25%) would be hit with 2 additional points ( this protects the mortgage companies and banks in case of foreclosure). So a 7.25% loan becomes 9.25%. This email reached the mortgage refi guys after he called our loan guy to okay the close. At 10:30 am, mortgage dude called loan dude to tell him the clear to close has been rescinded. The current documents were put on hold and he would be contacted in the future when our new interest rate would be determined. Yes. We were taking to loans. One for the house at 7% and a $10,000 on at 10% to finish the bathroom and pay off our credit cards. The second loan has to be redone, so the whole process has slammed into pause then reverse then stop. You know, an additional 2 points only raises the payment like 30 or 40 bucks, we're cool with that; we just want to close. Not that easy. Contracts have to be re-written by the under writer. So right now, I don't think anything is for certain. I rescheduled my tattoo which was on my requested day off on the 12Th so I can be open for this shit. The next available day was the 20Th. Fuck! At least it's a spiritual day for me. The Spring Equinox: Ostara.

To add to my frustration and depression, I have been cashiering the first two hours the store is open. We are still on minimal manning to catch up with the last fiscal year SPH. So the first three hours the store is open there usually isn't more than 10 of us in the store between the floor, cafe, and music. Very stressful because I think the most irritating customers, you know all the people that like to push buttons, come into the store when it first opens to "beat" the crowd. The angry returners (the ones that got a gift unsuitable for them) women with needy and ill behaved kids, senior citizens who are stuck in their ways, the people that don't sign the back of their credit cards, or the people who are generally offended because you asked to see ID with their credit cards. There's more!!! How about the assholes that come into the store wait in line (people behind them) and want to order a book at the cash register. When you refer them to customer service, they bitch about the wait in line, and your lack of customer service. Aughhh. Someone at the store simple told me, it maybe time for me to take vacation. The sign apparently is when you absolutely want to vomit on customers for being a dickhead, it's time for time off. I agree. I was there 2 weeks ago.

We bought the kids a 7 foot cat tower. They love it. There are four spots to nap. Usually all four are taken. The left over cat will sleep on their old 3 foot tower. It's been awhile since I saw the cats in a good mood. It warms my stone heart.

There is a book I'm curious about, I've looked it up and read reviews. It's called The Last of the Donkey Pilgrims, by Kevin O'Hara. The author will be doing a book signing at our store on the 15Th. I think I will buy a copy of the book and go to the signing. Basically, I guy goes to his land of heritage, Ireland to do some soul searching. He embarks on the 1800 mile trip around the island walking along side a donkey. Sounds crazy, but, sometimes to find ourselves, we have to lose our minds, our ways, and many pairs of comfortable shoes. So I'll be sure to let you know about this one too. My book cue is huge right now. I promise, if anyone out there is curious, I will let ya know about the books I'm reading. I also have in my cue a book called, Real Vampires Have Curves. A full figured vampire who wasn't impressed with clothes at Lane Bryant, so she starts her own boutique. I love it. One day I'll get to that one too.

The final thing I wanted to touch on is I'm finally seeing a counselor. It's nice to have someone attempt to pay attentions to your feeble ramblings. Tomorrow I have to take some psych tests. She wants to verify my PTSD and to see if there are any other issues. I feel like a well dressed lab rat. I guess that's cool. They get feed well if they are being injected with cancer. Our second session was all about my mother-in-law. It felt good to actually say how I felt to somebody with out getting that judgemental look.

So, it's getting late and I need to feed my cats. Remember, 300 starts tomorrow!!! Try to see it. And if you like that and Sin City, I believe there is another movie by the same director is coming out in April. It's called Grindhouse. Check out the website! Frank Miller is preparing Sin City 2, life is getting to be sweeeeeeeeeet!!!!!

My send off is from an email Hubby sent me today.

The following was on my page a day calendar, they are 'phrases coined from sex and the city'. Let see if you can match them up…

WORDS: 1. Helicopter 2.
Mousewife
3. Karat dangler
4. Mitin
5. Guyatus
6. Yellular
7. Phone zit
8. E-mauling

DEFINITIONS:
A. Talking loudly on a cell phone due to a bad connection
B. A male housewife
C. Acronym for "more information than I needed
D. Stalking via e-mail
E. A boy- or girlfriend who hovers around their mate
F: A pimple on the chin that comes from talking on the phone too much
G. A woman who loves showing off her wedding or engagement ring
H. A hiatus from guys


Yokai Kifujin